“Sometimes all you got to do is cry.”
Sometimes you just have to be there and practice being present. Accept that nothing is going to come, no one is going to respond, and even your feelings are going to be blury. That is OK. The importance is to show up and practice your animist basics: infuse intention in every gesture, be open, observe. Let go of the image of the Self you had for years, let go of your mystical years. If you don’t have the time, don’t have the energy, accept it. And don’t diminish your tears if they come. Tears are gold. Freyja taught you better.
If you want to use google translate, you’ll find a full article on this topic in French here.